I am a relatively young writer and researcher who investigates a wide variety of topics, ranging from politics, psychology, anime, statistics, science, and biohacking. For the purposes of navigation, this post is divided into 5 main sections:
General Life story
I became teriminally online when I was about 12 years old. I was looking up ATLA related stuff and came across a fanfiction, which are fan-generated stories about fictional media. I decided to make an account and write my own fics, which were terribly written but got lots of reviews and traffic anyway. I followed quite a few people, most of which were women, who tended to have tumblr accounts… And I think you know where this is going.
While I was on tumblr I followed a lot of different fandoms and got exposed to the SJW stuff in the early 10s before it went mainstream in the mid 10s. I became a proto-SJW and believed a lot of the bullshit they did, the natural course for a 12 year old in an online community. In this community, one thing that stood out above all else was the enormous amount of people who were openly unhappy about their lives and their mental issues - I come from a wealthy mormon family, so open mental illness isn’t exactly something I was used to.
At some point I came into contact with the anti-SJW and MRA types who posted on this website, and converted to the new cult. This conversion was accelerated by the gamergate movement, which introduced me to the other half of the internet (reddit, 4chan, etc.), which shifted my political compass shifted to something close to a religious neo-con. Sometime around 2014-2015 I got converted to libertarianism.
Online world aside, I was more or less socially blind until I turned about 14-15, which is when my social eye gradually started to open. In fact, I started to change in a lot of ways around the ages of 14 and 15 - I left the Mormon church, stopped misbehaving in school, developed an interest in philosophy, and started to do exercise.
I was fairly well liked in all my schools, despite my autistic traits, short stature, and foreign origin. I could have gotten lucky with my schools, or perhaps I have other desirable qualities that make up for what is usually the profile of an unpopular student. Probably a combination of both.
I started browsing /int/ and /pol/ around this time, and got introduced to the race realist stuff. I agreed with it and got into the alt-right. This lasted up until about 2017 when I had to focus more on school, and after that, gaming replaced politics as my surrogate. I got pretty good at several games (~90-95th percentile), but nowhere near good enough to steam or play professionally.
Around 2020 or so my political interest re-awakened, I still had right wing views, but had shifted away from the alt right and was undecided about whether race realism was true at this point, leaning towards no. Eventually, I started reading and listening to the alt hype, who I found convincing enough and I was reconverted. This was a fundamental paradigm shift for me - that the establishment could be wrong about something that seems pretty cut and dry, and made me trust institutions and other people’s opinions about politics a lot less. Gradually, I was fed into the dissident right space and the rationalist space around this time, and I decided that I had something to contribute to the world, so I made my old blog. I accidentaly started contacting other people by linking to their content, so I got discovered by my now trusted friend Charles Angelson.
Gaming settings
Keyboard: CK530 red with O-rings
Mouse: PULSAR X2A v3
Mat: Jupiter gaming mousepad
Monitor: Alienware 2521 240hz
DPI: 2000
Typical sensitivity in fps: ~15cm per 360
Quiz Results
Big 5 from IPIP-300 (late 2023-early 2024)
2nd attempt (Feb 2024)
3rd attempt (Mar, 2024. Most accurate so far.)
Personally I would rate myself 30th percentile extraversion, 50th percentile agreeableness, 80th percentile conscientiousness, 60th percentile neuroticism, and 99th percentile openness.
Subfactors:
Dark triad
Attempt mid 2023
Attempt early 2024
Attempt early 2025
Psychoneurotic inventory:
Nerdy personality inventory:
Moral Foundations
Autism Quotient
Biological Information
Physical strength: grip strength of 45kg. Can do ~80 knuckle pushups in a row.
Body hair coverage: medium.
IQ: 125-135 based on SAT scores. Legit online tests usually are within this range.
Sexuality: straight and bicurious or bisexual but straight by choice, depending on what narrative I’m trying to convince myself of.
Ancestry
~2% Black, ~7% Jewish, 7% Basque (who are Jews based on family history), ~10% Scots/Irish ~14% Amerindian, ~20% Spanish, 40% English
I have a hard time believing you are only 125 IQ.
I took the personality assessor and I had the absolute minimum scores for agreeableness, and conscientiousness, and had the absolute highest score for neuroticism. In extraversion, I scored low with the exception of seeking excitement:
https://www.personalityassessor.com/ipip300/results=1631396-988/
I think this shows that I prefer to define myself in black-and-white terms as a romantic form of self-aggrandizement, and this isn't a very accurate assessment.
So what's your history with anime and why are you an elitist about it? Unless there's a post about that which I missed.